Woman at work

I have to admit that I have been slacking at updating my blog....is not like i have nothing to talk about, but my emotion has been affected by the recent market turmoil and under stress to perform as we are approaching the evaluation season. I actually miss the days when I was in SF, where you are praised for whatever you do and nobody will criticize how much more you can contribute and they can only see the excellence rather than the flaws out of you. Life is so much easier in the states, I feel like I have aged 10 years for the 3 yrs duration in HK..... I feel so old..

Recently there are a lot of TV dramas ie cashmere mafia, lipstick jungle, featuring the high-power career-driven women , showcasing how women can rise from the bottom of the corporate ladder, facing off the male colleagues to become the management of the companies. They are oftentimes fancy looking, wearing branded outfits and handbags, self-centered and have strong faith in themselves and believe they can conquer the world. It's the reality that when women want to excel to the top they need to work 2x as hard or as cruel because no matter how good they are, they are still being stereotyped as mommies who will sacrifice work for kids/family and can't be 100% devoted at work... so it is to their disadvantage that they need to be even more like a man than the real men.

I ask myself whether I have what it takes to become one of the high-power working women. There are two ways to achieve that: 1) adorable looking and work your femininity into a competitive advantage 2) cut-throat bitch who likes politics and step on others to reach the top. The truth is that I can never be a bitch either way...I don't know how to play politics and I cannot backstab others to protect my own territory. From the first day in school we were taught to be helpful and considerate and be truthful to others, these principles and morality turn out to be the impediments when apply to real life. Is it being selfish and political the only way to success? All along I thought It's the woman's nature to take care of others and have a soft spot that is easily conquerable. I don't really see the top management women being recognized as genuinely nice and have adorable personalities. That comes to the next question, whether being selfish and political the only way to survive before becoming successful. I probably wouldn't be one of those successful women as I don't want to be the cut-throat bitch who are defined by their professional lives rather than good moral quality that one possesses.